Nathan is not normally a super serious kid. In fact, he's got a great sense of humor and a really fun and silly personality. His Mom and I usually pick the toothy smiles, silly faces and big expressions from his photo sessions but this time was different...

All of my very favorite shots were these serious, soulful expressions. Generally speaking I am 50-50 on the big toothy smile vs. the sweet and serious face. I love them equally.

Maybe it's fitting, Nathan is growing up after all. One of my boys is the same age as Nathan and he is getting a little bit more serious as well. He's not a little boy anymore but becoming a big boy. My heart breaks a little as I type that because it is hard to see those days fade away but I am loving watching his "big boy" self emerge too. His Christmas list had more puzzles, books, video games and science experiments and not a single hot wheel, Star Wars figure or big plastic fire engine.

Thankfully, for my tender heart, the changes are gradual. Sayer is actually asleep in my bed snuggled up beside me as I type this. His room is still scary on most nights and he still holds my hand (even in public). I get lots of hugs and kisses too. As I look at these images of Nathan, I keep thinking that if we keep a space open for our boys to be soulful and gentle they will continue to be so. I never want my guys to lose that soft side. I get that I might not always get to hold hands whenever I like and my hugs and kisses may have their time and place and that's okay. My hope for them (and me of course) is that they always feel comfortable leaning in, grabbing a hand or cuddling up when they need it.

Even tonight while decorating our Christmas tree, Steven stopped me and whispered, "Look at Sayer...he just looks so big". It's true. Sayer, Finn and even Nathan are all growing up and before I know it, they'll be driving cars, texting, needing privacy and wearing deodorant. So, these days, I'm doing my best to pay attention, be in the moment and enjoy my boys while they are still boys. They will be big boys and (gasp) men soon enough.