I know, certainty is dangerous and there's little to be certain of anyway. Most things are outside of our control and who would want to control it all anyway? The random stuff is often some of the very best stuff. Lately though, and especially the last few days, I am so uncertain that I actually feel edgy and uncomfortable. My friend, Danny, says it's just because I'm a crazy pregnant lady, which may very well be true.
There has been so much change this year and I know part of this uneasy feeling has to do with all of that. The only thing that I know for sure is that life is flying by at a dizzying pace. and I'm trying to craft this authentic, meaningful life that feels truly like "me". I want to edit out the chatter find my own personal recipe of work, art, home, friends and family.
In the process, I am putting new things out into the world. A few weeks ago (yes, it took me this long to tell you) I got my hand slapped. I packaged up my best art pieces, wrote my statement and sent it off to a gallery here. This is what I got in return.
I didn't even tell Steven for 2 weeks. I told Sayer first actually. Sweet boy that he is, he just touched my shoulder and said, "Mommy, I really like your art work. Don't be sad". I think that's why this picture is my favorite this week. It is Sayer's hand in mine and there is certainty there.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not upset at Lawndale for saying no. In fact, I knew it was unlikely to get a yes on my first try. I did kind of hate that it was a constant contact email though. Kinda made me want to "safe unsubscribe" to be honest. However, I am not going to go down so easy. I'm going to submit again to The Big Show. Now, if they say no to that too, you may find me face flat on my floor at home for a week or two.
So, what about you? What have you been thinking about and what have you captured in your lens this week? Anything that moved you? I hope you'll comment and add links to your blogs, Flickr, images, etc. in the comments below or add your images to my Favorite Shot Friday Flickr pool. Your comments and feedback mean so much to me. Thanks for reading and sharing!
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Rachel says:
I share Sayer's sentiments and feel very grateful for the time I get to spend with your boys. If I've had a bad day, maybe it's been a stressful week, when my confidence in things becomes shakey, I am only a Farrah and Steven date night away from feeling so much better. Thank you for letting me share in your family. I know I am only with the boys for a few hours every couple weeks or so but they are such a big part of my heart. I've tried so many times in the past month to write you and Steven because as I am making big steps in my life (graduating, going to law school, eek!) , I find myself looking back at what and who has gotten me to where I am. You and Steven, and the beautiful family you have created together, has given me so much guidance in almost every area of my life, whether you have realized it or not. Your family has been such a positive force in my life, that I really am without words.
(05.13.11 @ 02:46 PM)
Steven Charnquist says:
Farrah, have you noticed that we have added to our lives the absolute best people? I'm certain of that. Thanks Rachel for being part of it
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(05.16.11 @ 03:09 PM)
Claudia Z. Eubanks says:
I love, love, love this picture of you and Sayer. Not sure if it's the cute little boy hand over the mommy hand or the tattoo of Harold the helicopter or what... Farrah, even though I only met you once, your photography and your blog have been very inspirational. Your comments on my pictures on Flickr always fill my sails with the courage to continue learning and growing as a photographer. Your photography and artwork are amazing and the pieces I have seen seem to be very true to who you are. Sometimes raw, sometimes exposed, but always beautiful and wise. Keep at it!
(05.17.11 @ 02:51 PM)