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January 1, 2009
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I have said this before but I love doing maternity portraits because I love being invited to witness two people's highest hopes and dreams. Taking to leap to get married and have children seems all about hope to me. You spend months and often years dreaming, planning, and nesting. You focus on the good things and dream of the possibilities. That is why I chose this image for today's post.

A new year...time to start dreaming of possibilities and plans. Life is moving at such a blinding speed that the new year always takes me a little by surprise. Can it already be that another year has passed so quickly? I am happy these days. I feel so grateful that it makes me scared at the same time. I hate that creeping feeling when you are focusing on the good things and then the little voice shouts out "what happens if it all goes away?!" or "Just you wait until I pull the rug out from under you!" or "this is the calm before the storm so watch out". I think we all do that to some degree. You feel happy and vulnerable and the little voice knows exactly where to get you.

I am not much of a resolution person anymore because I never keep them. This year I am going to make one but I am keeping it simple. I am not joining a gym or keeping my house clean or anything like that. I resolve to stay in my happy, grateful place and to try as hard as I can to put a muzzle on that nagging voice that keeps trying to kill the buzz and steal my joy.

Honestly, it might be easier to join a gym and keep my house clean all the time. Resolving to hold on to joy is harder. It means, for me, looking straight at the reason why I would doubt that I should be so happy and blessed. Why would the rug be pulled out from under me? It also means putting away the fear that we all have about how we would handle the bad things if they do show up.

I have my ideas about how I am going to stay centered in gratitude. I'd love to hear yours, any suggestions? Does this ring true for you?
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Bren says: what a beautiful shot. i love the idea of staying in the grateful place. keeping a gratitude journal has been very helpful for me. it's almost like creating a gratitude habit. (01.03.09 @ 07:35 AM)
Carly Filippov says: I love your blog....I love how everything you create reflects your authenticity. And, I love your soulful zest for life. (01.07.09 @ 10:04 AM)

 

This morning I came across this amazing work by Phillip Toledano.  It blew me away and I wanted to share it with you.  Tomorrow many of us will gather around the table and share a meal with our families and friends.  Give someone you love a hug, hold a hand and enjoy some fellowship. 

 

Today I feel exhausted, weary from long hours at work during a very demanding holiday season but I also feel deeply grateful for so many things.  Two of them are sitting across the dinner table from me as I type this eating their chocolate pudding.  Life is beautiful.

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November 21, 2008

How can you look at little Julian and not smile?  Have a great weekend everyone!

 

 

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November 19, 2008

The holiday season is, for photographers, one of the busiest times of the year.  At the moment, my calendar is booked pretty solid and we're having to turn people away and put people on waiting lists.  It's challenging because I want everyone to be happy and get everyone taken care of but there are limits.  I am bad about limits.  I have a hard time saying no.  I always think that I can just push a little harder and work a little more and it will all be okay.  Sometimes I think this personality feature is a great thing and sometimes, well, not so good...

 

As it always happens, when things are stressful and time is tight, something else happens to just make it all the more tight and stressful.  This week that came in the form of a sick child.  I have been at home with Sayer for 2 days this week and have had to cancel a bunch of appointments and move things around.  I start to get all uptight thinking, I don't have enough time as it is and now I have less!  That is how it begins but as the day goes on and I've gotten to spend all this one-on-one time with one of my favorite people on the planet the stress starts to dissipate.  It's the little things for me that wipe the stress slate clean.  Monday we drew superheroes.  I sat back and watched him work with little legs dangling, his alien socks on, his intent concentrated stare and his very methodical choice of markers and colors.  It hits me like a ton of bricks that one day his feet will touch the floor and, unless he likes weird socks like I do, he will likely not be wearing alien socks.  Today we made a special trip to the video store to buy Wall-E.  We snuggled up on the couch and watched it together.  I love the movie by the way and think everyone should see it.  It is a beautiful film about love and connection so it was perfect for us today.  Anyway, there are a few parts that are so sweet that I literally feel myself tearing up.  It was at one of those parts that my sweet boy leans back, touches my hair and says "this part almost makes me want to cry".   In that moment, I want to pull him out of kindergarten, close my business and just freeze time.  It's then that the sick day becomes this incredible little gift- wrapped up in alien socks and topped off with shaggy brown hair.

 

It reminds me that it is about about balance and that balance is very hard to find.

 

and that I do what I do because I love it.  It's about finding little moments and freezing them.  My job is to help parents remember it and celebrate it because it goes by so fast that it just isn't fair.

 

That family is one of the best things going...

 

And that, certainly for me, what makes me good at what I do is my family.  So, in the blur of the busy season, I have to remember what I am doing.  I need to be in the moment.  Many thanks to my sick little Sayer for reminding me of that today.

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November 7, 2008

 

Oh, if only I could look this good at 35 weeks pregnant!  Rachelle came to the studio for her maternity shoot a few days ago.  She stunning!  Check out how sweet the proud Father-to-be (Eric) is as well.  I love these images!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Glamour Mom-to-be!

 

 

 

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