I was talking on the phone to a friend of mine the other day and trying to find words to express how I've been feeling lately. I threw out words like tender, nervous, happy, present...to which she replied (something like), I think you are right in the middle of the big unraveling. It's a good word for right now. My heart does feel a little like a ball of yarn that just rolled out of someone's lap. All it needed was one little push or moment of imbalance and, before you know it, it's all the way across the room. Try as I might, I don't think it'll ever get rolled up quite as neat as it was before. To be honest, I hope it doesn't. 

What's amazing about this unraveling, though, is that in a strange way, everything feels more together. All the change that I have initiated in the last few weeks seems to be okay. The pieces are falling back in place in amazing new ways. Connections that weren't there before are appearing. I'm feeling really hopeful.